Begin Again and Again and Again...

Is this the last time I will post a "beginning again" post? I hope so.  I want this so bad.  I want to be a runner. I want to be a triathlete.  I want to finally lose the weight and gain the fitness. I want it, but I always want it.  I have not had a "trigger moment".  You know the one.  You decide not to accept where you are for one more minute.  Not one more second.  I have not had that aha moment.  Truth is, I like myself.  I think I'm pretty awesome!  BUT I could be sooo much better! I had decided to begin on 12/31/12.  I did not want to start on 1/1/13.  I didn't want it to be a New Year's thing.  So, I hit the treadmill and did my first run of my new beginning on New Year's Eve.  And then the hammer dropped.  I woke up on New Year's Day and I didn't feel quite right.  Not "I had a couple of glasses of wine" not right, but, my chest, throat and body hurt not quite right.  So, I did what any...

"The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be...because of all I may become I will close my eyes and leap!"- Mary Anne Radmacher I finally think I have crossed from hoping I can be a runner, to knowing that I already am. Running does not come easy to me. Each run is a struggle. (okay, there is the rare one that is "easy"). What I finally figured out is that even though it isn't easy, I actually enjoy the process. I like to run. I don't like it to hurt, but i love how I feel when it doesn't! I ran Wednesday and Saturday outside. No biggie? For me, it is huge!! Wednesday it was in the 20's and icy. Saturday it was 18 when we started out! That is cold for this girl!! I typically don't do well running in the cold. My asthma acts up a little when it is that cold. The runs were tough, but I did it! Hardcore :) I need to start swimming, but I don't quite know where to do so. There is a high school pool that has lap times fo...