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I'm giving it up!

Okay, so I am guilty of always thinking "what if"... What if something happens to one of the girls? What if something happens to Mike? Or me? Or my parents, or Mike's parents... What if I run out of money before I run out of bills? What if my dreams never come true, but my nightmares do?

I'm sick of it already!!! Today I opened the blinds and looked out my bathroom window into my backyard. The sun was shining; the lawn is freshly mown; the apple tree has apples ripening on it; everyone was at that moment safe, secure, and healthy. If felt such a sense of peace. I have so many things to be grateful for and yet I waste all of this time on "what if".

So, I'm giving it up! As of today, I'm going to strive to stay in the present. I'm going to be grateful for what I have and not worry about what I don't. I'm going to appreciate every moment and not worry about when it will end. Obviously there will be times when I have to think about the future, but I will do so in a constructive manner. You know, like we need to save for a new roof. Okay. Let's make a plan. No more, what if... (we can't save enough before it becomes an essential, etc).

Well, you heard it here first, now... what if...

He he, jk!!!


  1. Thank you for dropping by my blog... I think we all have our doubts each day of our life about something I suppose but how we react to them and move forward with them makes us who we are, don't you think.... This was an inspiring and lovely post... Let your world, let you shine....Take care C xx


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