Begin Again and Again and Again...

Hopefully this picture conveys to you how I feel. I am so thankful for this life and what it has brought to me! I want to throw my arms wide open and shout to the tops of the trees "Thank You!" I am so thankful for my family and friends. I am thankful to be free, happy, healthy. I am thankful that I have a body I can move. I am thankful for this wonderful blogging community where on days I am not feeling so gregarious and grateful, I can be myself. Without judgement. I hope you are all spending the day with those you love and cherish. If you are not able to do so, my thoughts are with you as well. Have a blessed day! Trish * A little keeping it real segment here. I try everyday to be grateful for my wonderful life and most days I succeed. However, a. my life is not all sunshine and roses and b. please don't mistake me for a pollyanna , because I'm actually a glass is half empty kind of girl. Just had to say that for the sake of full disclosure! :)

"What if we decided life was beautiful -just the way it is?" I read this post today and it really helped put things in perspective for me. I have been feeling a little sorry for myself lately. My house is a mess - piles of books everywhere, walls need new paint, new carpet, hate my kitchen sink, not too thrilled with my body, my hair, my wrinkles. My heel hurts. My knee hurts. I want to work part time. I want to run run run! Blah Blah Blah!!! GET OVER YOURSELF ALREADY!!! My family is happy and healthy. Sure I could use more money. Who couldn't? Sure I'd like to be a thin, fit, hottie. I'm working on it. Can't run cause it hurts too much? Walk! Clean your house. Or don't - either way. You've earned those wrinkles - oh and remember that you always "forget" sunscreen? I spend so much time focused on what I don't have, or what I can't have, or do, that I miss some of life's most beautiful moments. I'm going to try to start kee...

Okay, so I am guilty of always thinking "what if"... What if something happens to one of the girls? What if something happens to Mike? Or me? Or my parents, or Mike's parents... What if I run out of money before I run out of bills? What if my dreams never come true, but my nightmares do? I'm sick of it already!!! Today I opened the blinds and looked out my bathroom window into my backyard. The sun was shining; the lawn is freshly mown; the apple tree has apples ripening on it; everyone was at that moment safe, secure, and healthy. If felt such a sense of peace. I have so many things to be grateful for and yet I waste all of this time on "what if". So, I'm giving it up! As of today, I'm going to strive to stay in the present. I'm going to be grateful for what I have and not worry about what I don't. I'm going to appreciate every moment and not worry about when it will end. Obviously there will be times when I have to think about th...