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Will it Stick?

Is this the last time I will post a "beginning again" post? I hope so.  I want this so bad.  I want to be a runner. I want to be a triathlete.  I want to finally lose the weight and gain the fitness. I want it, but I always want it.  I have not had a "trigger moment".  You know the one.  You decide not to accept where you are for one more minute.  Not one more second.  I have not had that aha moment.  Truth is, I like myself.  I think I'm pretty awesome!  BUT I could be sooo much better!

I had decided to begin on 12/31/12.  I did not want to start on 1/1/13.  I didn't want it to be a New Year's thing.  So, I hit the treadmill and did my first run of my new beginning on New Year's Eve.  And then the hammer dropped.  I woke up on New Year's Day and I didn't feel quite right.  Not "I had a couple of glasses of wine" not right, but, my chest, throat and body hurt not quite right.  So, I did what any sensible person would do and spent the day in bed.  I woke up Wednesday and felt awful, but I went to work anyway, because I didn't want to call in after the holiday.  Especially New Years...  I lasted one hour and I went home.  Thursday, I went to the doctor and Friday I found out I had Influenza A.  :(  Yes, I did get a flu shot, thank you very much.  I finally went back to work on Monday, the 14th.  As a lovely gift of the flu, I ended up with bronchitis as well.  I also have an achy knee, which I'm attributing to the flu as well, since I haven't done anything work out wise for weeks.  It has to be a lingering side effect or something.

I can honestly say I have NEVER been that sick.  I'm finally feeling better and I think I'll be able to run/walk without coughing up a lung and I'll ice the knee ;)  So, tomorrow, it starts again.  Wish me luck!


I'm going to try to be patient with myself this time.  I'm not going to judge myself for my slowness or aches and pains.  I'm going to eat well, but not berate myself if I slip up.  I'm usually an all or nothing kind of girl.  Not this time.  Slow and steady.  Consistency. Determination. Faith.  I can't give up.  I really don't want to be writing this post ever again.

~ Trish

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  1. Oh shoot. Yeah, that happened to me. I did a big strength work out and a few hours later I felt sore...but not in a good way. Consistency is key. Nothing happens overnight (except the flu it seems). I bet the knee aches from the flu. My bones and joints hurt so bad for days! Glad you are feeling better now!

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  2. Trish, I have had my eye on you for a long while (as you have had yours on me) and What I admire about you is that you may slip and fall, but you always get back up.

    Trust me.....I get it! Its so hard. I have also written my I'm back posts way too many times and each time, I feel a little more sheepish. My first week back this time was full of rain and COLD weather, but this time I've decided on "NO EXCUSES" (except if the flu were to hit me). I walked in the rain....TWICE. I felt like all forces were trying to hold me back and I cant afford to do that ANY MORE.

    I say this to say.... You are not alone. I get it. You CAN (and WILL) do it! Don't worry about the future today. Just take it ONE day, ONE mile, ONE moment at a time. Just whatever you do.... don't give up.

    You got this!!

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